tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27035071518914584252024-03-12T21:08:09.520-07:00Gay Men - Lives and IssuesSameer Mathurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17969719969392347740noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2703507151891458425.post-88729054526825124132008-03-13T12:07:00.000-07:002008-03-13T12:28:35.809-07:0032 & in the ClosetI am 32 and I am still in the closet. why? because I am an Indian.<br /><br />Its not a comfortable position to be gay and to be Indian at the same time. I grew up acting straight and I am still acting so. Its like living the life of a schizophrenic. At times you just want to retreat into your own world, hide behind a wall and shout your heart out.<br /><br />It was fine when i was growing up, ogling girls at school with my friends everyday was an achievement, as if I have beaten the strange feeling inside me. A feeling that I don't fit and it was becoming acute. I could not discuss this with anyone, once the secret is out - my life would have changed forever, for worse. so 15 years I kept myself hidden buried in the worries of my pathetic-self.<br /><br />Giving expression to my past is like breaking the shackles of my memories and coming out free. I will be writing here on the topics that are close to me, gay men and for liberating the Indian community from the curse of homophobia.Sameer Mathurhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17969719969392347740noreply@blogger.com0